Monday, March 17, 2008
Saturday, March 15, 2008
As I have mentioned in a previous post I am a volunteer photographer for "Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep," infant bereavement photography. Last night I received my first call, it was heartwrenching, to say the least, a beautiful baby girl, fullterm, stillborn. This afternoon I was editing the images from the session and my son came and sat down by me to observe what I was doing. I spend a lot of time editing images and he usually pays no attention, however this time was different, he was very curious and intrigued by what I was doing. As I am paging through all of my images the following conversation played out:
Jaden: "Mommy, those pictures are beautiful!"
Mommy: "Well thank you!"
Jaden: "Mommy, is that person crying?"
Mommy: "Yes Jaden, she is very sad"
Jaden: "Why is she so sad?"
Mommy: "Her baby died and that makes her very sad"
Jaden: "Jesus loves us and HE died, now we can live again."
Mommy (hardly able to contain the tears): "Yes Jaden, Jesus does love us and He did die so that we can live again."
Jaden: "Mommy, these pictures are gorgeous!"
Oh my goodness! How is a mother to control her emotions at a time like this? Where did those words come from? Gorgeous?!? It amazed me that in his 4 glorious years of experience he would directly relate the death of this little child to our Savior, that we can all live a again through Him. I am in complete awe of my sweet, sweet boy and his compassion, and he was right the pictures were gorgeous, not because of me, but because of God's beautiful little creation.
Friday, March 7, 2008
Any meal time usually ends with quite the mess (and Sammy is wearing most of it), I wonder how chubby her little cheeks would be if more food actually made it to her tummy?
She now needed a bath so I went to turn the bath water on and went back to clean up the "aftermath" of mealtime, well, apparently Sammy isn't much for waiting so she decided she would proceed without me... Clearly she doesn't mind bathing fully clothed (she's so modest;)
After bathtime, (without her diaper and jammies) Sammy thought she should stay in the spirit of "keeping it clean", at least that's what I'm guessing was going through her little mind when she dumped a half a bottle of shampoo on the carpet, lovely! There was so much shampoo that I had to pour water into the carpet and then scrape it into a cup, empty, rinse, repeat.
While I was cleaning the shampoo mess, she was, yet again, one step ahead of me emptying the kitchen drawers. (I could really use that massage and aromatherapy right about now:)
You really think the saga would be ending by now, but mommy left the cup of soapy water in the living room while she picked up the kitchen utensils, could any child really withstand that temptation? Is this like getting your hand caught in the cookie jar?
Are you exhausted from reading this post yet?
Then again who could get mad at a face like this...
Wednesday, March 5, 2008
As a photographer I try not to mix my business with my personal blog, however, this is not easily done as photography is my life! I think about it all the time, I dream about it (yes, I dream about photography, strange, I know). I absolutely LOVE what I do, which is so hard to find in life. Images capture the things in life that make us happy, that make us joyous and emotional, the things that make us feel connected. The gift of photography is felt on so many levels and used for every stage of life, to capture the important moments before they are gone and forgotten. How often do you pull out an old album, can you not help but smile to see the images from the past, each one reminding us of a different story? As a photographer I am so grateful to be able to share these moments in the lives of others. Pictures document a journey, unfortunately, life's journeys are not always perfect, there are bumps in the road, detours, and unexpected moments that are unplanned and are sometimes surrounded by sadness. These are the moments I want to talk about today, because these are the moments that are tugging at my heart. I am an affiliated photographer to a non-profit organization called "Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep" or NILMDTS. It is an organization that was founded by a photographer, Sandy Puc, and Cheryl Haggard, a mother enduring the loss of an infant. Please read more about the personal experience that drew me to this organization and watch a special clip of a family dealing with this very sensitive matter by clicking here. Thanks for taking the time to read my daily ramblings:)